Sunday, October 11, 2009
Tomorrow marks the first month of the sem.
Goodness gracious me, it’s the 4th week already!
I spent the first 2 weeks idling away.
Just when I was about to start my engine rolling,
I lost heart, I lost my motivation.
Alcohol and sleeping pills started to act as numbing agents.
Partying started to enter my life again.
Things started to get even more complicated,
even more issues started to surface.
I look through my academic calendar and finally realise
in my third/last year,
that the term only comprises of 20 weeks.
20 SHORT WEEKS!
GOSH...This translates to the passing of the first quarter.
I look back and I ask myself,
what the bloody hell was I doing during the past 2 years?
WTH was I thinking about.
Why did I only start flipping thru my notes
after the end of the 20th week, right before my prelims?
I guess it’s too late for any form of regret now.
I ought to get my act back together RIGHT NOW,
before it’s too late.
Right now, I already find it rather challenging
to catch up with the pace in school.
It is now lec 4 in school and I am only at lec 1 of my own revision.
On top of that, I’ve got assignments and tests falling in as well.
Most people TGIF while I dread Fridays the most.
After every single lesson of VSA,
I start to have butterflies in my stomach,
I start to lose my appetite,
I get so stressed up, I TURN BLUE.
It’s like a beating to my confidence.
Darn.. I HATE it.
So now, I tell myself.
If I don wanna screw up my last year, I gotto FOCUS.
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Sometimes I feel,
the harder one tries to search for answers,
the more futile it gets.
Because in the process of searching,
even more questions will be formed.
Perhaps in life, there aren’t always gonna be black or white.
For certain tacky issues, grey might just be the best fit.
Grey, is what I gotto learn to embrace.
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Boom boom shake shake...
Thursday at Sakae
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